On my way back to Garden city...leaving my home where i have my family back...making it a "home"...a house which became lifeless building made of just blocks and stones...again made a home...I love my family to the core...love my home...love being at home...feeling home sick again...
Working from home keeps me occupied most of the time... Mom is away to temple now...she is working so hard now a days....Also I am watching a movie now, in which Kate Winslet plays a character who feels never loved by some one and so insignificant every where...am I feeling the same? I don't know....being so insignificant and never loved anymore by someone I loved the most... I understand my bloody plight of waiting for other's permission to see my daughter or listen to her voice over the phone...its been a month now...too much painful this is...even thought of ending everything...but looking at the old lady at my home who is exhausted of all these issues to the core, my mother, I had to be determined not to cry or not to show my feelings in front of her...Waiting for the coming weekend... I don't know why the too silly reasons which has to be confined to the four walls of my home to be causing me to part with my best half...no...the one who was best and now not at all...
