Ellipsis...

Oh...Mylord...let me be your prey...not my dear ones. I think my planning to bring my family to Tvm city will set a good start for me once again.But I feel a bit painful in this situation which made me quit my old house...not a bit...much more.I want my sister's mind to be made up more strong.She is even thinking that her fate is to be ended up in disaster caused by CKD.Still I beleive in God.

The just passed year 2009 was a bit bad to me.Others say worst to me...but I just disagree with them.Apart from all the problems the vicissitude of God's grace made me capable of make up my mind a bit solid that I can face any kind of worst scenarios.Another thing is about an old friend's marriage(whom i considered as my best friend).He is getting married on Jan 4th.I just came to knew this from my boss.I have also made up my mind that this year onwards I will seek friendship from people who are in the same range with me.Anyway i do not have enough time to get bothered about such silly things.I compare the last year to the workshop of a blacksmith,myself as a raw piece of iron.I was given so much painful beats on the anvil.Now its time for me to come out as a weapon towards all my problems.In this year my resolution is to think wise and act wise without getting worried in problematic scenarios. I wish everyone a happy and prosperous new year Baiju.V.K.

I have been living till this moment as Half-Janus.Janus has two heads,one looking in to past and other one to future.Also my mind is having two parts.In one my awareness of my past lies and another one watching the present.I am fully blank about future.I cannot forsee or perceive anything.In some moments i cannot even think of my future. I am thinking of my mom...my dear mom.She is so exhausted now.She has a lot of load and tensions.The only thing i live for is her wellness.If i get a bit more income I can support her in family matters.Dear mom...you are the one whom I deicate all my,Experience ,Love and Life to. Also I have to think of my Boss.I trust my him,because I realize my past an present.Let god make him guide me and my colleagues well.I am also so concerned about his health too.Oh god...forgive me if i have done and thought anything unfavouable to him.

Being present in the premises of this temple,I feel the holy serenity....

My lord, Even in the midst of sufferings I have found and felt your blessings...thank you my lord....

It is my mom who told me yesterday just to look back to past four years...yes...I did ,I cuold easily find that I am a big and emphtic zero...still remains as the same....